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[15 Apr 2006|09:43pm]
wow look at me
updating journals that remind me of bad times

real bad times


just to let anyone whos ever glanced at this journal..I'm so much better
I'm phenominal infact.

never better.

If im ever back to the points where i describe in this journal ever again...lets just say all that i stand for would be ruined. and well..i wont let that happen
in other words livia nicole is amazing in every way shape and form.


that is the end.

:-D


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add it if youre so inclined.
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[27 Jun 2005|01:08pm]
[ music | FOB<3 ]

[info]dramatictragedy
add me bitches.

new sn = xdramatictragedy

holler

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<3 <3 <3 [23 Jun 2005|11:02am]
[ mood | happy ]
[ music | Fall Out Boy - XO ]

well i guess it's time for an update.
saturday and sunday i babysat. forever. i get paid so much i love it. $80 in two days. not bad.
hmm monday..lets see. kime picked me up and me her and mel layed out. i wish i remembered what else we did. because i cant right now.
OHH. we just hung out. then kime and i left. we went to subway and TCBY to apply for jobs. it was sweet. we went to jimmy jones to maybe? i don't remember. hmm then we picked up Kara and drove around. hmm then around 10 we picked up ericcccc
omg i love that kid. hes so funny. i dont know what we did. i cant remember but thats okay.

tuesdayyy...umm pistons. holler.

yesterday uhhh. kime picked me up at like 1. we layout out. she did my hair! ohh man. you cant evne tell but its okay cuz ill do it again another day. i tried to dye it with red streaks. didnt even work :-/
oh well. then we went up to the spreeeeee with kara. yay for getting on rides for freee. then kime and me went to bens work in freaking.. i dont know where. but it was far away. we got pizza. yay for free sauce. ben is sweet i promise.
then we went to pick up philamena? i dont know but shes cute. umm james and vinnie came too. kime is sucha rebel i swear. rode raaage. i love how she goes 70 on side streets. its crazy.
hmm then we all went up to the spree. it was a good time. lots of kids were there. i saw tommy brandon torrance and corey<3
ahhh how i missed him. haha kime corey and i went on the fireball and kime got kicked off. liz and mikepee were there. i love them i promise. we saw MARYZ EYEZ. with 2 Z's it was gay. they sucked. but its okay it was still a good time.
then we walked forever to get to courtneys car. all 50 of us piled in there. emily philamena kime me james courtney and vinnie all got in there. it was insance. i was so sitting on kimes lap. best time ever.
hmm i got home at like 12.

today i might be going to the spree again. but who knows.
comment if you feel the need.


OH by the way. if someone wants to make me a sweet layout/bg i will love you forever. i promise.
please and thank you <3

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[18 Jun 2005|09:32am]
[ mood | happy ]

im updating for the first time in forever.
I'm so much better now. I can't even beleive it. for a while there i really thought i was dieing. but im so much better. which makes me super happy :-)
I seriously havent been happy in too long. Im not even gunna lie. i was on medication for a while but im so much better.
anyways. school is done. fuck yes to that. i seriously hate school too much. im so glad its over. i cant even beleive im a fucking junior next year. come on now. that is seriously so scary. it feels like just yesterday i started high school and 2 years have gone by. now thats insane. ahhhhhhhh

anyways my summer so far has been pretty fun. i mean how can you not have fun with kime. she's like the funniest person ever.
thursday was the last day and iwas so happy. i cant even explain it. but after i hung out with kime. then mel came over. i seriously haven't seen them in 1343 years. well then we just drove around cuz niggas all have liscense expect for me. :-/
but its okay cuz kimes driving me everywhere from now on..maybe?
but it was cute. we went to plymouth..for no reason at all. then we met up with ben. had a litte road rage. it was hilarious. kim was going like 70 and a cop was parked like right there. lucky there was no one in it. it was so funny. then we jsut hung out for like 2 hours trying to figure out what we were gunna do. yeahhh. then we went to starbucks. yay for that.
then i dotn know what we did. i cant even remember
i think we were gunna go to the movies but pyscho bitches like to call? yea. that was funny.
hmmm then ben left and we just hung out with eddy and another kid? i dont evne know.

friday was sweet. let me tell you. kime got her liscenes plate to her ghetto car. but its okay. its a car.
we went to visit mel at work but she wasnt even there. so we just got job applications. im so happy. i think were gunna get the job. JimmyJohns. yess i love food.
then we just went to laurel park for a while. didnt even get anything. so like around 6ish we went to babysit. it was actually alot of fun. we just kinda sat there and watched tv. then we went to get movies. we got the forgotten. that was seriously a really good movie. then we played DDR. heck yes for me failing the whole time. Its okay though cuz i eventually got a C. holllerrrrr
the little girl is like a DDR god. i swear. it was so much fun though
anyways we just sat there and ate all their food. it was a good time. they didnt even get home till 1. but its okay

so today i think im going shopping and then oh man what surprise...babysitting.
oh well. i get paid to sit there. heck yes for that.
hmm I dont know what else to say so comment maybe?

<33

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[31 Mar 2005|11:20pm]
[ mood | sore ]
[ music | Seether ]

So I'm dieing pretty soon...

literally guys...

...it hurts to even be awake sometimes.


okay okay..all the time.




Lets see what else I get diagnosed with tommorrow...?


oh by the way...today is eight years exactly. went to visit him today and couldn't even find the damn tombstone...now that's truely pathetic.

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[26 Feb 2005|05:54pm]
[ mood | cranky ]

Well cities was today!
Wow, Franklin Varsity...can we say amazing? I'm not surprized they took cities. it was awesome.

Me one the other hand didn't do good at all. :-[
It makes me sad today was the last competition even though I suck.
Slack and Nicole were cute and made me a Go Livia finger! thank you sweethearts <33

CHS and SHS tied for round 3..I think it's bullshit.
..whatever.


This week has been pretty bad for me. I feel like hell 24/7 and no one seems to care.
but the more and more i think about it the more i realized if I were them..I wouldn't care about me either.
I did talk to one of my best friends that I havent talked to in about a year the other day though. It felt good to know she still cared.

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[17 Feb 2005|09:01pm]
What if I died tonight?
Would anyone actually care?


or would they just pretend to care so I shut up?


prolly.
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[14 Feb 2005|03:32pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

I'm constantly on the verge of tears.
literally, I never thought it would get this bad but I'm about the worst ive ever been.
ever.

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[11 Feb 2005|10:26pm]
[ mood | crappy ]

well this week has been long. kinda..
we had a game tuesday at John Glenn, ehhh fun. the kids there a so rude.
hmmm practice has been nothing for me because we changed round 3 for leagues and im not in round 3 so..i basically sit there. but the round looks so good. it's really cute cuz there's a dance.

today was the pep assembly.= skip spanish. i absolutely can't stand that class.
but the pep assembly was fun i guess. our class has no enthusiasm way so ever. but what are ya gunna do.

last home game today, actually I think this was the last game we cheer for?
We won. yipppeeee. Varsity won too, duh.
leagues tommorrow at Walled Lake. I'm excited to see how the girls do. especailly varsity
I won't be in it :-/
leagues = no round 2
It's quite depressing.


there's so much more i want to say but ..i just cant.


comment if you feel the need.

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[05 Feb 2005|12:52pm]
[ mood | dorky ]
[ music | from first to last - secrets dont make friends ]

i just got back from ladywood competitions like an hour ago?
hmm we did good. :-]
round 1 looked amazing. <3
alex's back was hurt even more now so she couldnt compete. :-[
I felt so bad. she has a 95% chance of being paralized. damn, I wouldnt even consider competing if that was me. props to her.
Round 3 still looked good.

Okay so this girl from churchill...wow. :-[
I feel like crying right now. she was doing a back handspring and fell. she dislocated her knee and started screaming. god, i was in shock just hearing her scream. that is so fucking horrible. :-[
It honestly makes me sick to my stomach that some girls were smiling even though she was hurt. I can't even think about it. :-(

I just took my hair out. goddd if you could only see it, major froness going on heaaaa.

I'm excited about cities. We have a good chance at taking first :-D
yessssss.

I still feel pointless to be there. I'm only in round 2 and..everyone hates it :-/

the games last night were fun. We killed chs. i dont remember the score but we won by alot.
Lots of kids came..well..to varsity. :-]
Mike came... hmm it was fun. Hung out with slacker <3 i love her.
i dont remember anything else. blaahhhh

yea im going to shower now.

comment.

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[03 Feb 2005|05:37pm]
[ mood | accomplished ]
[ music | brand neww ]

so no one comments anymore :-/

I'll update before I forget everything.
Tuesday was our game at Walled Lake Central. woooo. it was a fun game :-]
Gosh, their pom is so skanky. if i went there id so make it. seriosuly all they did was feel themselves. dirty whores =-O haa.
Ghetto people at walled lake like to start shit with cheerleaders? yea, i guess they're sweet. There were people on their side..that were literally 30? or at least they looked liek it :-0, they wre like starting stuff with melissa. haha honestly...who does that?
annnnyways, we lost the game tho. it was close 50-54. :-] I remember this time = huge accomplishment.
The varsity game was fun too :-)
hmm I sat with tommy for some of the time. those kids are so loud. its so funny how involved they get with the game. i love it :-]
on the way home our bus driver was the best ever. he was so ghetto i loved it. he started singing and dancing to the songs on the radio. we had the whole bus going, it was schweeeet.

hmm I just got back from practice. we changed all the rounds pretty much. I'm only in round 2 so i feel like i do absolutely nothing during practice :-/
not a good feeling. hmm today was crazy tho. our whole team fights :-/
i honestly hate it. i dont understand why people just cant...grow up. I dont talk shit about any of the girls on the team so i dont see why other girls have to.
i guess girls are just like that. i hate it.

ahhhhh :-/

Tomorrow chs game! yaaay! im so excited. then Competitions at Ladywood saturday. Yessssssss
I'm kinda feeling good about round 2 now that she changed it. i hated being so close during the heel steches and spilts. but its all good now.

school= i dont even fail anymore. im doing good at geometry now. I swear, it's such a good feeling not being lost. hahaha. i sound so lame


hey, i love slack. alot. gave me the biggest laugh of my day today. <3 haaaaa im still laughing.

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Lake Orion Competitions [29 Jan 2005|07:10pm]
[ mood | awake ]
[ music | the spill canvas ]

woooo! I just got back from Competitions at Lake Orion! no actually I just woke up. Let me telllll you today was sooo damn long.
hmm, I'll start from friday :-]
We had a home game <3 I love em, they're so much fun. It was against Salem. The guys did so good. but there was so manly basketball player problems. I guess Dennis tried to fight with the coach? not totally sure but wooo, i thought girls had drama!
I mess up on every cheer almost, it's kinda funny sometimes. We did round one for half time = I'm not even in it but it was good. We all sung happy birthday to jenny right before it :-)
It was hella cute.
JV lost though. of course, i can't remember the score :-/
Then a buncha kids stayed for varsity. It was a fun game. emily likes to call boys every 5 seconds and play prank calls. hahah I was like this is roxaaaaan :-D
The middle school pom performed at halftime. they did so good!
Varsity won :-D duhhhhhhhhh!

Today. aaaah competition mornings. I woke up at 5am. that's not fun at all :-(
We had to be at Mckinley at 6:30. the bus ride didnt seem very long cause well, i was sleeping :-D but it was like an hour maybe?

Lake Orion is huge!! There were so many awesome teams there. I'm still so surprised. Rodchester and Cheasning? I'm not sure how to spell it but wow. They were both amazing. Their freshmen were just as good as our varsity.
...they do start "breeding cheerleaders in 2nd grade" hahaha. I still think that's hilarious.
Our freshmen did awesome. they always do. There's so much drama between freshmen and Jv and i still dont know why. WE GO TO THE SAME SCHOOL. YOURE NOT COMPETITING WITH EACH OTHER. It's kinda obvious how all of it started but I'll keep my mouth closed. even though im typing here :-D
I'm proud of them though I think their round three got Third? I'm not totally sure but they did get Third place for one of their rounds.

As for us, i think we did good too :-)
Personlly I kicked ass because well...NO HEEL STRECH DROPPED HERE!
I wasnt nervious like the whole time we were there untill we started warming up right before we were gunna go on. But it was so much fun. I absolutely loved how it felt after i hit everything. I may kinda suck at my jumps but heeeey i did it all :-D

Then we see Rodchester throw back walkovers and back hand springs and all I could say was...WELL MY HEEL STRECH DIDNT DROP. haha I wasnt being bred into a cheerleader in 2nd grade...sorry. :-P

For our round 2 I think we got 8th our of 15 which isnt bad at all considering who was all there. :-]
I'm not sure what we got on the rest of our rounds.

Our competition ended around 4ish. We watched varsitys round one :-)
They are so cute i swear. I love how they cheer. <3
Melissa and I got lost on our way to the bus. we had to get back and get our bags and completely got lost. It's so confusing in there..but we found the bus. oh well, it happens.

I got home at like 6 I think? i just went to sleep and now im feeling realllllly lazy. But it happens. comment pleaaaase :-)
<3

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[26 Jan 2005|08:37pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]
[ music | static lullaby ]

hmm I guess my classes are getting better.
But I have ZERO. that's right, Zero blow off classes.
= no sleeping

Huge change from last semester, all I did was sleep.

Software media...I thought I'd be okay at it considering I'm always on the computer but..Hi, I'm pretty stupid.

but guess what! I don't even fail at Geometry anymore. for real this time.
...maybe. dont even want to jinx myself.

My classes are still pretty lame but ehh I'll live.
Lunch is really boring. I'm glad I have Sarah though<3

hmm yesterday...I completely forget my things in Rukats..so I had to go back and get it and then I missed the bus. haaa
I'm stupid. So ken gave me a ride. :-]
If he hadnt I would have prolly been there foreeeever.

Then we had a game at Plymouth at 5:30. Opphh. could they be more rich?
seriously, it's disgusting how rich they are...it really makes me feel like Franklin is really ghetto.
Anyways, it was a good game. reaaal good game. :-]
We beat em, I don't even remember the score. But the Plymouth basketball players are assholes. We went to be like "good game" i dont even know what to call that? but yea they were giving us dirty looks. I'm like wow, sore losers :-P


today, ummmm i have too much homework and its what? the 3rd day of the new semester.
comon nowww

hmmm home game friday! :-] yaay, i love home games even though our crowds are like...no one.
Funniest part = doing cheers that require a crowd responses and...no one responds. it's funny yet embarressing.

competetion saturday. I'm excited <3

commenttttttt even though no one even reads this lame thing.

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[24 Jan 2005|07:42pm]
[ mood | aggravated ]
[ music | hawthorneheights ]

well lets start off by saying I hate school with an extreme passion.
We started our new classes today and well...they blow.

1st hour...Software Media. It seems like a huge bore. I don't even know anyone in there besides Jake and we don't even talk. oh well, we get comfy chairs 8-)

2nd hour Geometry.. Somjak doesnt seem THAT bad. I'll tell you she's a hell of alot better then Mr bieske. damn, i cant even.. RARR. i dislike him greatly.
Rickys in there so at least we can talk more? I kinda missed him

3rd hour History... Newitt seems kinda cool. hmmm I hate history but he seems like he'd make it more fun. Straubs in there..so tons of laughs :-]

4th hour..Spanish. ew ew ew ew. ewwwwww. hate it. okay its not that bad but I thought i hated mrs massuchi and well...I miss her now :-[
I dont like this ms blanck..it seens like too much work and im not very good at spanish. and my partner...hmmm he doesnt really..well...talk. it's lame. there's some cute kids in there though..I think shannons getting transfered tomorrow.

Lunch... hate it. hate it. hate it.
It's no fun, slacks not in there. I sit with kelly and sarah :-] :-]
and other kids..i dont care too much for..but hey it happens.

5th hour.. Holmaaaaaan. He seems kinda different this semester. of course he's got to call on me for every question. hate it. There's a shit load of kids in there..like 35. laaaaame.

6th hour.. Ruuuuuukat! except he's not even teaching. lame student teachers :-/
I don't even like it. at least I sit by Tia again! = i'm gunna fail

hmm then cheer todaaaaay. we just worked out cause lots of girls didnt know/didnt bring clothes to practice. ohhh well.

I'm in a really bad mood right now. :-/
I don't even like these classes. They kinda make me sick..I barely have people I talk to in any classes. this sucks :-/

blah blah blah. im done complaining, comment?

<3

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[21 Jan 2005|01:18pm]
[ mood | bored ]
[ music | boysnightout ]

I hate snow.
competitions get canceled.
lame snow.


okay okay, i like snow just not 235252ft of snow.
I was excited about this one too. Grosse Iles like 23432 years away but stiiiiiiiilll.

anyways, yesterdays game was fun i guess.
Our crowd is so lame. they need serious help with their crowd responses. its like cheering to a brick wall. haha I actually am, i cant evne see the crowd cause we cheer on the floor but still, the crowds lame.
but people cheer for varsity, cuz people are actually there.

okay i dont have anything else to say

bye now, comment

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[18 Jan 2005|10:16pm]
[ mood | amused ]

okay im updatinggg

today was longgggggg. Finals were easy I guess.
History was lame. i deffinetly guessed on more then half but...oh well. I dont even care.
Spanish? WOOO HOO. didnt even have to give the presentation :-]
=sit there for 2 hours talking to slack about silly things. loved it.
after that we went and hung out at her house. woooooo we ate of course
=thats all we ever do! loved it. we took pictures but her camera hates her. some turned out hella cute though.
anyways i always have fun with her even if we are just sitting not even doing anything.

hmm then cheer at 3. we so added new people to round 2.
practice was like nothing but hey, it happens. my arm was killing though :-/
it has been since saturday, i think i have joint problems= not fun.
but then we had a game at wayne memorial. wooo. we did round 2 for halftime

i loved it. why? I DIDNT EVEN SCREW UP! first time ever hitting everything without dropping things infront of a crowd.
umm props to me cause..well i was in pain. but heeeeey :-D still did good.

+ i love taking random pictures of cheerleaders. it's so funny.

My stunt group is getting better :-)
I just wish I wasnt in pain all the time

better heal by saturdaaaaay

OH. we lost the game by...one point. its okay though! you guys still rock. <3

anyways hardest finals tomorrow = Biology and Geometry. I have a feeling im going to do okay on them. maybe.

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[17 Jan 2005|05:05pm]
[ mood | bitchy ]
[ music | the early november - all we ever needed ]

i hate finals
except today was really easy. Health and English..
I didnt know things in health..cuz well..i slept in there all semseter.
I still have an A..maybe? I'm gunna miss that class alot. :-[
all those kids made me laugh everyday..mostly cuz they were laughing at how retarded i can be.
it happens :-]

English..it was so damn easy. I really wish I didnt have holman next semester. He bugs me. i mean hes a good teacher..sure sure. but sometimes i just cant stand it.

okay this entry is so pointless

I came home and ate everything i owned and then slept cuz i dont have friends

except slack <3
and evan beck M372

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wooooooooooooooo [15 Jan 2005|08:27pm]
[ mood | blah ]

Wow. how insane has this been.
I'll start from thursday. School is hell. I'm so sick of it all. I can't even stand to be there. I'm finding it really hard to do my usual fake smile more and more. I've been stressed about finals and everything. I'm not doing that bad but still.

The cheer expo. Ohhhh god. I did so bad. I dropped my damn heel strech. again. I was so embarressed :-[
It's hard standing there and youre shaking like hell and to try to keep it stiff while holding your leg up there. It's a long hold too. The worst part is I can do it when I'm not nervous..really good too. ahh. Our round 3 was...well it needed alot of work.

Varsity, I'm speechless. they are so amazing. I cant even imagine being so...wow. I was in awe. Freshmen did really good too <3.

Friday. ahh I can't even remember things anymore.
I've been working really hard to do geometry. I can honestly say I hate math. any and every kind.

We got our new schedules. Yet again I have Holman.
I know I know, it cant get any worse.

OH BUT IT CAN. I have zero, that's right zero classes with Slack. No one even understands. We've had so many classes and lunch together all the time. To not have anything now it...it makes me think alot. I hate it so much. When I went into 4th hour yesterday and found out we didnt have any classes or even lunch together I started thinking about how I was close to some people I had classes with and now we barely talk. The thought that her and I wouldnt talk hurt. alot.
I know I sound like fucking baby but I cried. I couldnt help it. ahhh I'm pathetic.
I cant even think about this anymore.


I don't have classes with anyone. Okay I do. 5th and 6th hour with tia. i love her alot. but those are like the only classes I have with anyone I'm close with. damnit.
LUNCH? yep. ill be the loser that has to take their lunch in the bathroom cuz I have no friends to sit with. damn im really gunna miss lunch with ash and slack :-(


this is a really long entry. I'm not even close to being done.

After school friday we had practice for 3 hours.
Round 2 like hell. Did I drop my heel strech everytime? yep.
It was so depressing. my nerves were out of control.
+ we added stuff too. I know round 2 really fucking good it's just the fact that I feel like everyones counting on me not to drop the damn heel strech cuz I'm always the only one who drops it too soon.
We worked on round 3 but I'm not even in that round. It still needed alot of work.
I came home stressing like hell.

Today. today..wow. First competition ever. Does anyone realize how exciting it was? well it was. I was up at 5:30. my hair was cute i guess. it had the tiny curls..but werent so tiny cuz my hair is long.
I was ready at like 6:30 so of course I'm streching like hell.
I was so damn ready. heather picked me up and then we got marissa. We went to Tim Hortons and i was like omggggg what if evans is working?
oph he wasnt...at least I didnt see him.
Ookaaaay so we get there. Novi is fucking enourmous. it's insane that that's a damn high school, it looked like a zoo! haha
We warmed up alot. round two was perfect. my heel strech so went up everytime we practiced it. everytime except the last time before we went on. damn. I thought i was so fucking ready.
When they called us it was soo ahhhhhh
I really loved it. it was a rush, I wasnt even shaking at all. I can't even remember how I did all I know is my heelstrech dropped a second too soon.
I really want to see the video :-(

I thought we did good for this being the first time like half our squad has ever been to competitions. We didn't place.
We all worked so hard. This just pushes us to work even harder for next week. I'm so ready. I seriously love our coaches. they are so encouraging it just makes me smile how awesome they are. <3

there's more but I don't feel like typing. Over all it was alot of fun. Nervious as hell but it was an awesome experience.

<3

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[12 Jan 2005|06:35am]
[ mood | rushed ]

woooooooo
this week has been insane. Okay its only wednesday. ahhhhh

Monday was cute. Slack and Nicole decorated my locker and got me cute presents.haha slacker got me mac and cheese! i thought that was hilarous.
i loved it alot. Ashley got me a cute gift too and made me signs. I was happy :-]
thanks kids <33
hmm ive been stressing alot lately. dur like everyone is but it happens. Finals suck so bad.

yesterday was our home game against...umm i forgot but we won.
I fail at every cheer. and we did round 2 for half time. it was good except one part
can anyone guess what part? ME. yep. my heal strech feel too soon :-/
this really sucks. we have our first competition this saturday! im excited like hella but i just dont know.
I'm really hard on myself sometimes and it's having bad effects on me
I seriously think i have mental problems.

We have our cheer expo tomorrow. I'm so excited, I'm gunne really work hard at practice today you dont even know....asdgkjsdhas

okay its like 6:30am maybe and I'm updating cuz i never have time.
yesterday i stayed up doing Biology History and Geometry finals/homework/makes me insane

OH. I did really good on my Biology test. well no not really B-..but hey it happens.
I dont even have a D- in there anymore. B- waaaah!

we have a geometry test today. even thoughi thought it was monday. and then tuesday but freaaaaaal its today and im not even going to fail = I might.


okay comment maybe?

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[09 Jan 2005|01:11pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | fall out boyyyyyy<3 ]

Happy 16th Birthday to me!

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